Waiting

I'll close my eyes and pretend to fall asleep.
I'll try to shut down the body, so the mind can rest
I'll cry until I feel the pain in my hands and soul.
And then I'll understand that this was nothing more than a test.

So until the sun rises, again inside my person
This mind that I should be, will remain closed inside
When time comes and reveals the personality I should have
I'll finnaly have the courage to take a step and stop to hide.

For now I'm just a shadow of someone I'll never be
For now I'll just imagine the perfection I don't have in me.